Just a quick one, I have 5 mins!
Today the three of us went to ikea for lunch hahah
It was kinda fun. All the meatballs an chicken wings! Oh did you know tt the meatballs changed shape? It used to be a sphere but now it's just weird. I honestly think it's because they're cutting down on the meat per meatball. It really looks smaller!
Ohhh and the chocolate moose was soooo gd. Maybe I was hungry:// hahah.

The telemarketer in my office got fired yesterday.. And I didn't even get to say bye! But I guess tt would be a little awkward, since we're not tt close. But I did go out for lunch w her once. In fact, I think I was her first friend:/ guess I saw it coming since she kept taking mcs and my boss did mention it to me.. But I didn't expect it to be so fast! Lesson learnt: don't slack.

Google 'do it anyway' poem by mother theresa!

Had this stupid moment when I decided not to stick on a plaster cause I was lazy. Later at night, my sock was stuck on the wound-.-
When I tore it off I did the internal scream hahaha. After tt, it started bleeding-.-
Ouch.

Should I go overseas to study?

It's igottowaitfortuitiontostart Tuesday! Hahah mutton style.

Today I realized tt I don't really fit in at work. My friends are all the clubbers/smokers and sometimes I think they look down on me. Hahaha oh well, why do I have to screw my life just to get accepted? So they're gg for a movie today which they graciously asked me along but unfortunately I have tuition. #lonerforlife
But I guess work-wise I'm kinda doing well. Except for a big mistake yesterday:x wrote hundred instead of thousand0.0 other than tt, since I don't go for smoke breaks, I have more time to get more work done.
Anyway, although I said my friends at work are rebels, they're still nice and friendly:) and older than me hahahha.

Had a hard time figuring out all the appraisal form stuff yesterday. So this was what I gathered. Ntu has online appraisal, while nus and smu doesn't specifically specify submission of such unless called for the interview.

After much pestering, I managed to get my form teacher and cca teacher to write the hard copy for me, which my form teacher did the v next morn:) so nice hahaha. Now I just need to collect it from sch.

Yesterday I gave tuition too. And I was so impatient. You know the feeling when the ans is so obvious but the student thinks she knows how to do it but keep doing it wrongly? And she was also getting frustrated. So I had to try my best to keep my cool, which I think I did:) I just hope I'm helping her..

Not so slpy today. Guess it's because I slpt at 11 plus last night. Now to think of it, work is gd cause you don't have revision/homework to do at night.

Random fact: I like the Milo here. It's thick and good:D you know how some stalls make their Milo w little powder and lots of sugar. This is the best Milo I've drank so far. Better than the can Milo actually. I don't really like the milk taste in can milo. Am I the only one tt thinks tt the can and packet Milo taste different?

Alrighto. Off to tuition.

This is weird. I feel lightheaded again. Ok maybe I did have a drop too much but I always thought I held well. Maybe not. The alcohol content was too much. But I'm still conscious guys don't wry! And anyway it's a company event so I kinda have not much choice right.

Anyway, I really want to thank God for everything. I think all the heat these few months have provided me w a relatively clear mind.

According to show nearby the bus is coming in 18 mins-.-
Angst.

So it's that time of the wk again, where I wait arnd for tuition to start-.-
Anyway, I think I'm starting to get used to my job. Starting to have more friends too, although the receptionist still give me the death stare all the time:/
The registration process is vvvv confusing, but I guess it's more fun. I'm getting used to making calls too. I think I got over my phobia of calls thanks to this job.
That aside, something amazing happened today! Well not really but it kinda made me happy early in the morn. So I came up the lift w this guy tt looked familiar so I guessed he was from our company. While I was pressing the lift button to keep the door open, he actually held the lift door open for me and let me exit first! Wow. Reminds me of Zack:pp after we entered the office, he actually checked in for me and omg he knows my name!! You must understand tt it's a huge company. And other than your area, you hardly know anyone. So I realized his name is Leon. Leon the gentleman:)

On thurs I have this wine appreciation thing w my dept-.- hahah I didn't want to go initially. But after tt me and the other temp were kinda forced/threatened to go cause they needed the numbers hahaha. Well it's cool. Free wine + crackers and probably cheese hahah. Best part, we get to leave at 5 hahah.

Anyway I've been fretting abt uni apps. Yesterday I submitted my application for ntu and wrote a whole lot of the non academic section. I'm just hoping it'll help me through. Some ppl say I'm being over ambitious trying for courses tt prob won't take me. But I guess I wanna try. It's not like I don't meet the minimum requirement, it's just tt there's too many ppl and too little space. And then again, NUS FASS PLS ACCEPT ME. Thanks.

Last night I smsed my form teacher hahah. And I thanked him for everything. 饮水思源 yknow. Although I didn't do well for physics, it's still impt to thank someone who invested so much time in you. And I kinda feel bad cause nobody in class actually appreciates him as much as we should. He was really nice when he replied. He told me maybe next time I'll teach physics at ac or maybe math hahah. I don't know where he got tt idea from abt being a math teacher but ok I'll take it and accept it w thanks:)

Kbye!!

so A levels results are out and now its the time to fret abt uni hahah

ok i admit i was terribly upset abt it. literally broke down in tears. and right now tt's still a touchy subject i guess haha.

but thinking it though, i guess there's a lot of things to be thankful for. seems like the right time to count my blessings so i shall:)

1) i got B for gp when ive always struggled w it for all my jc years. thank God for sx who lent me his essays tt i memorized just to vomit it out during paper 1. that was a real life saver.

2) C for econs. i was really scared i was gg to flunk it. left a million and one questions blank.

3) thankful for nice cellmates like pris, who followed me all the way there to collect results and was there for me when i was so terribly upset. she was the first to see my results actually. even before i did. and i could see from her face tt i didnt do well hahah. thankful for heidi who sent me a virtual hug w/o asking anything more. shiqi who helped me understand tt i still can try, the person who treated me like normal, tt i shouldnt fall now. alice for whatsapping me from US and offering her help. mrs seow, my psch teacher tt i'm really close to, who smsed me and told me tt she did doubly worse and tt i shouldnt give up:)

4) nice sch mates that tell me its ok and really mean it. sy for inviting me over for dinner and over to her house although she knew i was all upset and possibly grouchy. mandy for silently holding my hand. even though it was a short outburst, i really appreciated it.

5) supportive family! my mum was really encouraging. so was my brother. when i smsed him my results his reply was:'not bad what. so many b' the next sms:'your gp b?!' HAHAH so i told him i'm upset tt i had no A. not even for math, which was a HUGEEEE disappointment. his reply? 'your name not A meh bodoh' hahahha i was tearing and laughing when i read tt. how touching. i really love how my brother doesnt judge me a single bit. after my second breakdown at home even though i thought i wouldnt, my brother smsed me again to tell me not to be so sad hahah how nice. my mum have been telling me shes v proud of me. i guess although i dont entirely believe tt she thinks its gd results, tt's what i need to hear right now and i'm thankful for tt. my dad have been.. my dad:) and i know he wouldnt judge me for my results too:)

6) nice relatives haha. today they happened to come over for dinner. and when i stepped through the door i could tell from their eyes tt they knew, probably my mum gave them a heads up, in case they ask. (i must have really scared my mum hahaha) but yah they were really graceful abt it. when they finally decided to talk abt it, they told me i did well and it was really a huge encouragement, so thank you all dearest uncle and aunties!

7) last but not least, i thank God for helping me. i understand tt these results are the consequences of the lack of effort and all the stupid things ive done in j2. but i still thank God for grace. instead of gd grades, He showed me friends i should appreciate, family i should love. it is a heavy price but i'll take it. and i trust tt even though there's a little set back, He still has my future planned and it's gd. GOD, YOU PROMISED!!!:) hahha.

and especially after today's svr, i feel like i should appreciate things more. there are broken families out there and they have it worse. i think abt friends tt have to go through parents' divorce, or friends tt have to live w the fact tt their loved ones may pass away anytime and i'm truly thankful for what i have. at least, i'm alive and well.

so i have quite a number of smart friends. and honestly it stings a little to hear abt how many As they get. but i guess i'm truly happy for them. jealous of their results, happy for the people:) so there's no need to feel bad for me, A levels is of the past. now i just wanna get into the course of my choice and do well from there.

i promise myself tt i'll NEVER make the same mistake again. study hard from here art!:) its not over!

Some international Canadian sch kids in the train. And one of them was studying chinese/ mandarin.
I feel like gg:
'hey yo you study chinese? How abt pizza making?'
Ok I was just jking no offence. One of the guys actually looked quite cute:pp
I was just thinking abt Canadian pizza actually. Yesterday was this intern's last day. And although we barely knew each other, she baked a cupcake for me too! How nice:) so I was thinking maybe on my last day I'll treat everyone pizza or something:) or maybe I'll just make a note:pp
New guy's coming in today! Pls be friendly thanks.
Bye friends!